Work

I am sure I am not alone in my frustration of not enjoying my job. I love my career but not where I am currently employed. I have been looking for a new job and have not been successful. I even applied for a job I had previously, interviewed and was not accepted. The letter came in the mail that stated they went with someone whose background better fit the job requirements. Ouch. Only to find out a recent graduate was the one who they hired. After weeks of gaining back my pride I am fine with how things played out. It was clear that many people were hoping I'd get it and were genuinely frustrated along with me when I didn't. There will be other jobs to apply for (actually there are 2 as I write this) and I'll have to see where I'm meant to end up. If I stay in my current job I will need to adjust my attitude. I have lost my interest in trying to make it a better or more efficient place to work.

In addition to my day shifts, I am also on the on-call schedule. We all rotate through and take our turns doing this either on weeknights or weekends. This past weekend I was on-call Friday night to Monday morning. To add to the fact I don't enjoy the job, this weekend didn't help the home life. Julie was extremely crabby that I couldn't be home to help her out with a few projects she was trying to accomplish. I was glad to be at work so I didn't have to deal with the thick cloud of anger that was hanging around. To tip her over I had my parents come get the kids so she could work and that made her even more mad. It took her all day to calm down because she realized it would have been impossible to spend an hour and a half at Home Depot with the kids to have wood cut for the shed. Enough said. I just wish she would realize sometimes that just because I was going to work doesn't mean I was trying to get out of helping her.

Sunday evening I went to pick up the kids at my parent's house. We stayed for dinner, and while we were eating, my dad says to me, "We want Julie to be in it for the long haul. If that means we take the kids so she can accomplish something, that the least we can do." He even said this with tears in his eyes. So sweet. He did also state that if Julie left me and the kids, they would have the kids ALL the time. Ouch again. I guess mom and dad don't think I'd be a very good single parent. Nice. Julie is in it for the long haul. And for what it's worth, so am I.

We made it through May

As my other blog shows no posts in May, I can tell you it was a busy month. From the beginning it was planning and hosting Leo's birthday party, then I was on call for work for 7 days then off to NYC for a long weekend. I am definitely not getting enough sleep, and we go through stretches that we feel we can stay up late like adults. But we can't. With Dru and the occasional bad dream or wetting the bed or Leo dropping his nuk, it doesn't help the sleep deprivation.

Julie is a list maker. She makes lists for anything and everything. I understand why she does it but occasionally it gets a little out of hand. Take for instance the year long list of projects she wants to accomplish. Each month has a spreadsheet and if it doesn't get done, it gets added to the next month. It really makes me anxious to see the list grow each month. The tasks are not easy or quick, and with a 2 and 3 year old who want to "help" we only get to a few items. I'm not sure how seeing the list grow makes her feel. As those who know her, she doesn't get stressed out easily or show outward signs of stress. It will be interesting to see what is left to do at the end of 2011.

Leo turned 2 in May and has definitely started to show signs of the terrible twos. So far it's been just letting us know how he feels about a certain request by yelling "NO!" or digging his heels in. It has been fairly easy to persuade him though, and so far I can still pick him up and move him if need be. He was diagnosed with pneumonia in May and was treated with antibiotics and now is on daily Singulair. I guess we'll have to wait a little longer for his reactive airway disease to subside. He does not like it when I make him stop playing because he starts to cough.

So far June has been good, it is finally warm out and summer activites have begun. Last year at this time Leo wasn't walking so this summer will be much easier and enjoyable for both Dru and Leo.

Tonight, I am going to bed early!

Here goes...

Julie and I met 15 years ago. Our relationship didn't get off to a smoothe start but somehow we survived all of the bumps and bruises. We moved in together after 4 years and began our life as a fully committed couple. We did quite a bit of traveling and I went back to school. I decided to explore the idea of having children. I knew if I didn't, she wouldn't. We now have 2 beautiful children who are currently 3 and 1. I carried them and she adopted them. We are extremely blessed!