Work

I am sure I am not alone in my frustration of not enjoying my job. I love my career but not where I am currently employed. I have been looking for a new job and have not been successful. I even applied for a job I had previously, interviewed and was not accepted. The letter came in the mail that stated they went with someone whose background better fit the job requirements. Ouch. Only to find out a recent graduate was the one who they hired. After weeks of gaining back my pride I am fine with how things played out. It was clear that many people were hoping I'd get it and were genuinely frustrated along with me when I didn't. There will be other jobs to apply for (actually there are 2 as I write this) and I'll have to see where I'm meant to end up. If I stay in my current job I will need to adjust my attitude. I have lost my interest in trying to make it a better or more efficient place to work.

In addition to my day shifts, I am also on the on-call schedule. We all rotate through and take our turns doing this either on weeknights or weekends. This past weekend I was on-call Friday night to Monday morning. To add to the fact I don't enjoy the job, this weekend didn't help the home life. Julie was extremely crabby that I couldn't be home to help her out with a few projects she was trying to accomplish. I was glad to be at work so I didn't have to deal with the thick cloud of anger that was hanging around. To tip her over I had my parents come get the kids so she could work and that made her even more mad. It took her all day to calm down because she realized it would have been impossible to spend an hour and a half at Home Depot with the kids to have wood cut for the shed. Enough said. I just wish she would realize sometimes that just because I was going to work doesn't mean I was trying to get out of helping her.

Sunday evening I went to pick up the kids at my parent's house. We stayed for dinner, and while we were eating, my dad says to me, "We want Julie to be in it for the long haul. If that means we take the kids so she can accomplish something, that the least we can do." He even said this with tears in his eyes. So sweet. He did also state that if Julie left me and the kids, they would have the kids ALL the time. Ouch again. I guess mom and dad don't think I'd be a very good single parent. Nice. Julie is in it for the long haul. And for what it's worth, so am I.